Being Human Transformative Experiences

The Messy Middle: Rebuilding, Remembering, and Returning to Yourself

VictoriaChemko
ByVictoriaChemko

There’s a part of the journey we don’t talk about enough.

It’s not the thrilling beginning, full of ideas and momentum.
And it’s not the satisfying end, where clarity reigns and things fall beautifully into place.

It’s the middle.

The messy, humbling, sometimes disorienting middle.

This is the space where things aren’t quite working the way they used to, and the new way hasn’t emerged yet. Where you’re letting go of what no longer fits, but the next shape of your life hasn’t revealed itself. Where you’re tired—not because you’re doing it wrong, but because transformation is inherently exhausting.

This space is raw.
It’s real.
And it is sacred.

Because the messy middle is not a detour.
It’s the becoming.

When Life Undoes What You’ve Built

This isn’t just a metaphor for me—it’s lived experience.

For most of my adult life, I’ve worked hard to build things that felt solid. I made the “right” decisions. I saved. I invested—into a home, into the market, into my business, and into myself. I diversified. I planned. I kept growing. I pushed forward because that’s what we’re taught to do.

And then, over time—and in some moments, in an instant—it all changed.

I watched material security dissolve, piece by piece.
Because life happens. 

The market shifts. Fires consume. Earthquakes rattle. Systems fail. Relationships end. A phone call changes everything.

Like the families in LA who lost their homes in the wildfires early this year.
Like those affected by yesterday’s earthquake in Myanmar and across Southeast Asia—lives reshaped without warning.
Sometimes what we’ve built doesn’t survive.
And we’re left holding not just grief—but the question: Who am I now?

The Humility of Beginning Again

There’s a particular kind of humility required when life brings you to your knees.

When you’re no longer leading with your title, or your resume, or your perfectly styled life.
When you’re no longer “ahead” by society’s standards.
When all you have left is yourself.

It’s disorienting. But it’s also clarifying.

Because you begin to see:
Your value was never in what you owned.
Your worth was never in how well you performed.
Your lovability was never tied to your success.

And the people who remain—not because of what you can give them, but because of who you are—become the soul threads in your new foundation.

This is the gift of loss that no one talks about:
It peels everything away until all that’s left is truth.

Softening the Push

We live in a culture that romanticizes the grind. That tells us if we just hustle harder, push further, do more—we’ll secure something unshakable.

But here’s what I’ve learned through this experience:
Sometimes, the pushing is what keeps us disconnected.
Sometimes, stillness is what brings us home.

I’ve learned to let go of the performance.
To let grief have its place.
To let slowness be sacred.
To listen—not just to the world’s expectations, but to my own body’s wisdom.

And in doing that, I’ve started to rebuild—not from pressure, but from presence.
Not for validation, but from alignment.

Letting Yourself Be Seen in the Becoming

In these moments of unraveling, it’s tempting to disappear. To wait until you’ve got it “together” again before you re-enter community. To clean up the narrative before you tell the story.

But this middle space—the raw, vulnerable, unfinished part—is where we most need connection.

Because this is where authenticity lives.
This is where real intimacy is born.
Not in our perfection, but in our presence.

The people who see you in this space and stay?
Those are your people.

The ones who love you not for what you do, but for who you are?
That’s your real wealth.

Loving Yourself Through the Messy Middle

This kind of love—self-love in the face of loss and rebuilding—doesn’t come from affirmations. It comes from showing up for yourself in quiet ways.

It means saying:

“Even without a plan, I am still worthy.”
“Even in grief, I am still growing.”
“Even now, I deserve care, compassion, and community.”

It means letting yourself be human.

It means choosing grace over guilt.
Rest over rushing.
Truth over pretending.

Because you are not behind.
You are in the becoming.

This Is What It Means to Be Human

So if you’re here—somewhere in the middle, rebuilding from something you didn’t see coming—I want to tell you this:

You are not broken.
You are not late.
You are not alone.

You are in one of the most important parts of the journey.
The part where the surface cracks, and something deeper emerges.
The part where you remember what’s real.
The part where you rise, not by force, but by alignment.

This is the sacred middle.
And you may be sitting in this for longer than you expect and still having to continue to love yourself through it.

Welcome home.


Reflection & Journal Prompts

Take a quiet moment. Light a candle, open your journal, or sit in silence. Let these questions guide your reflection:

  1. What part of your life feels like a “messy middle” right now?

  2. What have you lost—or are afraid of losing—that has shaped your sense of identity?

  3. In what ways have you discovered strength or clarity in the midst of loss or change?

  4. Who has stayed by your side when things fell apart? How does that shift your understanding of trust and connection?

  5. What would it look like to rebuild from softness, not from striving?

If You’re Sharing This Journey Too…

You’re not the only one navigating the in-between. If this story reflects something you’re living—or something you’ve come through—I’d love to hear your version.

Photo by Tommy Bond on Unsplash

About the Author

VictoriaChemko

VictoriaChemko

Founder & Guide
Growth & Business Strategy Advisor, Fractional CMO, AI & Personal Transformation | B2B Tech, SaaS, Wellness, Impact & Energetics, Remote-First & Future of Work Leader | Scaling $0-$50M Companies | Founder of Umami Group of Companies.
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